Bird by Bird

I relate now to Anne's brother sitting at the kitchen table wondering how he will finish his report on birds. Only for me its my thesis. 

I am feeling a bit uninspired or maybe just tired with writing.  I wasn't aware at how much there is to do. I think the last time I wrote down goals is about different writing projects I want to do on here. But as I said now I need to finish the damn thesis before I can do much else. 
I was thinking I don't really like writing papers, there is a lot of fussing over the figures and making everything perfect. But something I do really like is making powerpoint presentations, I don't know why, but imaging myself telling research to other people helps me get it much clearer in my head than telling people on paper. I think I lose sight of who I am writing for. But with presentations I can picture the people in the room, maybe bring up jokes to them or things they contributed. 
I think though I just need to put in the time. 

Either way to finish the thesis I still have to go step by step, or as Anne's dad would say bird by bird.

Makes sense that you're more inspired to pitch in front of people than to write something that will be read by others.

The super power move here would be to see that you're also pitching others when writing a paper just through a different medium.

But still at the end of the day the most important thing is to actually see what's holding you back from writing the thesis. It's obvious that it's a painful ordeal for you and the pain is most likely exacerbated by the fact that you're not willing to admit to or see what about it makes it so difficult for you.
2022-02-17 13:55:02
Yeah, I think the main thing is leaving the lab. Once I get out of there, and say right thats over. But thats hard, and scary lol. 
2022-02-17 16:27:56