Periodically throughout life, we’re asked by our peers the strangely existential question: “who do you want to be?”
When my college counselor asked me this question during my freshman year, I felt for the first time an enormous pressure to have an answer.
I responded with gusto, “a neuroscientist!” (spoiler: I dropped out of the program after a semester because it wasn’t for me).
When in reality the answer was “I don’t know.”
What I understand now that I wish I understood then is that “I don’t know” is a valid answer.
I don’t know doesn’t mean that you’re lost, it means that you’re still exploring and discovering.
To know what you wish to do is just as beautiful and meaningful an experience as it is to be in the process of discovering what it is you wish to do.
Getting back into Hip Hop helped as weird as that sounds.
Definitely a conversation for when we connect in town :P.
Do you know?
I don't. Not in concrete details. But i feel more alignment. I think maybe this is what you are feeling to.
but i'm also weary about feeling this way for too long, there has to be a 'when' -- a point in time where i do something concrete that feels like a step in the right direction.