Something pulled me back here. After rarbg went down a few weeks ago I felt a pang of regret and nostalgia. You wouldn't think a website has any pull -- let alone emotionally-- on your headspace, but I couldn't help feeling like this was the end of an era. The event had significance to me. It wasn't nothing. It was the best movie torrent site, and, back when I was still downloading porn, nothing could rival it except Empornium (but that doesn't really count because that was a private tracker and this was public). Point is I visited that site weekly for the last 15 years probably. If not weekly then monthly for sure. I visited it enough that the dark theme with the blue category nav bar on the left and the new releases poster icons up top, just above the search bar, were even more distinctive than the entrance to my neighborhood grocery store. At least a shop will tell you months in advance that it's closing down, but rarbg basically got hit by a train. Very sudden, very unexpected, just like all these post covid athlete deaths. I felt something. Sad, I guess.
I didn't make the adagia connection right away, but I'm sure it was in my subconscious somewhere. Could it be that this was gone, too? Why not? Abe's a busy guy, maybe he's got bigger fish to fry. We can write anywhere, doesn't have to be here. I'm partly right it turns out. Site's here, Abe's here, Drew is here...but it doesn't look like anyone else has been writing here for a while. Kinda makes me admire Drew and Abe all the more.
I missed it. But I don't know what exactly. I also don't understand why I won't get going on substack, or why I won't revive my old blog, or publicly share my writing generally speaking, but I fondly remember 200wad and sometimes think back to all the posts I wrote on adagia and I realize it made me feel good to write on this dark background and to dump my literary poops up in here. I'm glad there's the two of you left and, if you'll have me, I'll be the Aramis in the trio. We may one day even have our D'Artagnan.
I didn't make the adagia connection right away, but I'm sure it was in my subconscious somewhere. Could it be that this was gone, too? Why not? Abe's a busy guy, maybe he's got bigger fish to fry. We can write anywhere, doesn't have to be here. I'm partly right it turns out. Site's here, Abe's here, Drew is here...but it doesn't look like anyone else has been writing here for a while. Kinda makes me admire Drew and Abe all the more.
I missed it. But I don't know what exactly. I also don't understand why I won't get going on substack, or why I won't revive my old blog, or publicly share my writing generally speaking, but I fondly remember 200wad and sometimes think back to all the posts I wrote on adagia and I realize it made me feel good to write on this dark background and to dump my literary poops up in here. I'm glad there's the two of you left and, if you'll have me, I'll be the Aramis in the trio. We may one day even have our D'Artagnan.
