Caught in a vicious circle

In a conversation the other day, I came to the realization that I may be caught in a vicious circle.

I refer to the day job as "blurk." It pays me well, but I don't leap out of bed in the morning anxious to hop on the computer. Some days are better than others, but I'm not passionate about what I do. So I have a rule that whatever I do on my own time, outside of the main job, better be something I enjoy. This could be creating episodes of The Brandonian Doctrine or designing an online course or writing my daily posts. 

Then I realized some of these extracurricular activities are more enjoyable than others. I enjoy writing my newsletter but promoting it less so. The technical piece of course creation is a pain. As soon as someone starts to impose rules on my writing, I automatically back away not wanting my writing to turn into more "blurk." But some of these activities and tasks are necessary if I eventually want to make a living on my own without a "job."

But if I have a choice between blurk that currently doesn't pay anything but may pay off years down the road and blurk that pays a lot right now, what do I choose? This is a vicious circle.
Lmao I just wanted to say that from my perspective I think having a 
is awesome. 
2021-04-28 14:54:25
Steve are you still taking that marketing course??
2021-04-28 15:16:35