He had thought about going out for coffee but decided against it. Instead he made his own in the Moka POt rather than using the

Keurig

that he had gotten his girlfriend for Christmas two years ago. He even frothed some milk to make himself a 

cappuccino

.

They had gotten together just before that Christmas. This was back when he had very little money so the Keurig was quite an expense for a gift. But she had been the one he had thought. So his mind didn't care about the math.

He thought Two years was a long time to be in a relationship. You could really know whether you were fit for someone or not by then he thought. He thought the only reason why people separated after two years was because they weren't being honest with themselves and each other at that 730 day mark. Or if they had had some life event like having kids that delayed any sort of honest evaluation at that two year mark... then down the line you might separate after a hard long look at the relationship.

As he sat outside in the sun he wished they had a gazebo. Some sort of shade up top. He'd hang outside much more if they had such. He thought about buying it. Ran through the list of shops he would check. How much it might cost. What credit card he would use for maximum rewards. Then that train of thought reached its destination and he wa back at his relationship. The two year mark. It had passed just few months ago. Back then he had been sure that this relationship was a sure thing. She was "the one".

Everything changed in that anonymous pole barn. The lights went out. And all the feelings from before had gone somewhere that wasn't his heart. Where though?