I feel like I'm in a fugue state but it's just that I'm utterly exhausted. I need to go to sleep. I need to take my pills tomorrow. I've skipped two days and it's like my brain is unable to create the chemicals necessary for life anymore. I hate that. I've also ridden my bike at < 6am for the last few days. Last night I had one final burst of energy and worked from 10-12. Today has been a struggle after mid-morning.
One more very early ride tomorrow. Hopefully I can drag myself out of bed and get to the coffee in time to feel alive for one quick lap of the lake which is approximately 15 miles. Then pills.
(I can't take my pills this late at night because while they don't prevent me from sleeping the dreams they induce are disturbing.) :P
I always try to write at least 200 words on here and this is a sorry excuse for writing but I just didn't want to break my streak. Now I'm going to drag myself the 20 or so feet from my desk to my bed with a very quick break to brush my toofers.
196 words.
One more very early ride tomorrow. Hopefully I can drag myself out of bed and get to the coffee in time to feel alive for one quick lap of the lake which is approximately 15 miles. Then pills.
(I can't take my pills this late at night because while they don't prevent me from sleeping the dreams they induce are disturbing.) :P
I always try to write at least 200 words on here and this is a sorry excuse for writing but I just didn't want to break my streak. Now I'm going to drag myself the 20 or so feet from my desk to my bed with a very quick break to brush my toofers.
196 words.
But yeah, good luck with the exhaustion. It adds up all too quickly.
not after...
the fall..
of ...
I imagine someone like
"No coffee needed here. See, Daniel. What I like to do is not rely on my brain to produce the chemicals it needs. Instead I like to just inject my brain into a stew of chemicals." Peter Thiel himself.