A lot of the thing happening in my life looks weird. Things that don't seem to fit who Abe is. But when thinking about what exactly makes these things weird, I realize it has nothing to do with the things themselves being weird and more with the fact that I'm looking at myself through some outdated lenses. 

Until recently I viewed myself less through my own perspective and more through those around me. This vantage still lingers today where I am looking at myself as though I'm my old friends. When I drop that perspective and reorient myself things make a lot more sense.

In the old days I felt like things made more sense in the days and evenings when surrounded in social circles, but I'd feel some uncalm alone at night. I'd drown this unease with social stimulation. These days I feel mostly calm when I'm by myself, and I only feel a disruption to this when I start seeing myself again through what I imagine are the eyes of others.