Sailed

Dave to get some air went on a walk. There was something about being on a campus, maybe its just all these people beginning their lives Dave thought. He looked to his right people were studying or working on computers in the grass. Workaholics he laughed. Then to his left two people cuddled together holding hands and reading. Lovers. The girl using the guys chest as a pillow, it was too much like an ad for college he thought. He thought maybe i'ts just cause these people have so much hope. He was thinking about Lenny now, if Lenny had what these guys laying on the grass had he'd be fine. These guys didn't want the day to end. Dave thought about then the first person he ever loved. Tammy, they never laid on the grass together like this, nor did they really hold hands, but they'd spend all day at a cafe studying. Maybe small contact of the feet, or a small bit of coffee outside always made him laugh. But Dave never wanted these to end. His whole life was about those sessions. Just being, being with her, laughing with her. This was different than Dave's current arrangement, Sarah. They were married, but he felt more like they were just colleagues, made to keep their house together, the kids happy. He hoped almost everyday, the day would end, and he could be alone. He couldn't just pass an afternoon together, not any more. He was talking to himself at this point, and said out loud

"That ship has sailed." 

He made a motion like throwing a paper airplane. 

Fuck I need to find some weed he thought.