One of the best things about being super ill is that you get to just watch

TV

 all day.

This is even exciting at the beginning and you even start to like being super ill... so long as you are confident that you will recover soon, but you even start thinking maybe this life is better than normal life.

Most people I know would not think this way. To be an "

invalid

" would crush their 

ego

, but that's one thing that's been off about me compared to others. I never minded being a leech. Someone who doesn't contribute their fair share but takes a lot of the reward. It wasn't until recently that I even began challenging this philosophical constitution. I began thinking "what can i do to help?" rather than "how can i help myself.". I'm still mostly living in the latter state of mind since that's how I've lived my whole life, but my intention on becoming the former is finally there now.

Being super ill though to the point of being bed ridden has made me able to be a leech though without feeling guilty about it. It is a strange mood to revisit. One thing's for sure though, no matter how much good television there is out there, simply twiddling your days away on them gets boring quite fast.