Trying to write something seriously when one isn't a serious writer already is difficult and most often leads to cessation.

The other day as I sat on the

toilet

I thought about how if I had to I could finally write a novel (first draft) in a week. It wouldn't be good, but I know how to pump one out now.

What keeps people from writing isn't that they can't write, but their unwillingness to write anything good.

One day, if i'm still alive, I'll have something that. compells me so much that I can't go on without writing it. So that's when i'll write my book. Again if I'm still alive to that day.

there's no amount of 'wishing' that one could write something great aka meaningful that will make them ready to write one day. That's rather someone's

ego

wanting to be known as a writer. A true writer will have something to say and say it.

Drew and I are more the silly type. so we write in comically. But take a look at

pevenjoe

and I's more serious attempt at writing something less jokey:
https://adagia.org/content/6110

I can identify with this new job 

anxiety

Even though i can't actually ever shake the feelings of 'what if i'm not good enough'

i know that truthfully that 

fear

is driven by the 

ego

and is not very useful.

But i still fall for it because i have ego lol.

Ultimately it doesn't matter if you're not good enough for the job. You'll just either become good enough through training -- which the company is anticipating -- or if you can't learn timely-enough, you'll just get a another job. That other job will have its own pros and cons. 

It's not like your life's ultimate validation of success or failure is dependent on how this one job pans out.

Good luck to you sir!

I'll devote more of my future writings to clarifying this.

You are approaching what i'm expressing here when you talk about 

ego

and its projection.

For now TLDR: the person who invests as their actual truthful what-is rather than what-ifs is someone like 

Warren Buffett

. Although to the outside it looks like speculating, most of his time (inside) is spent in the now. What does he know now? What does he see as true now?

The fomo investor spends their time only on the what-ifs. moon city

Yeah my perspective and interests here differ than back at 

200WAD

.

Back then I actually didn't mind if the community was lacking because to me 1 on 1 relationships were more important. At the end of the day I knew that I would still have my relationships with you, 

keni

, 

seun

, and 

dealingwith

 

but now i curiously wonder though. Not in a 

ego

defending manner but honest 

curiosity

...

At what point do you believe the community was strongest and why? What made it that way? I know as a fiction writer your answer will differ from the more common user.