It was a function of parents who were too overbearing and a school system that praised him with gold stars. But when he left and when he was gone he thought that he was at the center of everyone’s thoughts. 

Part of  Spacecity was posting online, you had to post...

People stayed longer too. Almost as soon as you did that there were the accusations of being a lifer. Keith was one and there was another guy before. Alan maybe started with an A.

They just kept going moving from contract to contract. Enlisting again and again. 

He decided from early...

He had his reasons that was for sure. It was before he had known that time changes things. Puts some things in perspective. Now big things back then seem little now now other things have occupied his mind. 

Back then it was mostly due to a girl or the lack...

He had read somewhere online, or maybe it was one of the guys online that said “if you can find a different perspective the world might become more beautiful.” He couldn’t remember where he saw it. But one of the guys on his gooning site said they bought a pair...

"You want a fill-up?" His wife asked him.

They communicated mostly through an ipad that he kept on his desk, and she an ipad on hers. They always kept it on. Them both in their respective caves. It had started as a sort of doing things alone together, but then they...

His shower wasn’t as bad as he thought. It had probably been weeks, but unlike his trash can it wasn’t mouldy. 

It smelled for sure. But he had soap and so he assumed it would clean itself. He checked the sink and had bleach so he poured that down the...

He didn’t immediately get up. Relieving himself in a Gatorade bottle he had drank earlier. There were a number of them below his desk near his trash so he sort of counted it as he threw them away. He liked the circular nature of it. Other people on the site...

That was about the time in his life he had found his first goon room. It was from a chatroom he kind of knew but just lurked on. He got a private message and then found what the guy said sounded fine. Better than what he was doing. Said it...

Pete had the thought of crushing more tall boys. He usually had four in two hours. At that rate he’d need almost 48 for the whole day. He wondered how much he could have and still live. Would you stay drunk forever? Would at some point you would just throw...

The plan to leave rose up like a wave in him. A big wave a catastrophic wave. But instead of a crash and the destruction of change he sort of gave up. 

Watching the wall was fine for a little, and then he started playing on his phone more. Then...