nedzen @Nedzen

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The thing with closures is that it never happens until the emotional motives of the subject that needs closure have been completely exhausted. Hence, the only path out of a state requiring closure is ensuring that your self-reflection has metabolized the original motive into a new one. That is when...
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Short Stories

Thinking about insanity and freedom

Insanity is being unable to escape the cage of your thinking. That is one of the largest human challenges - to emerge afresh, anew. Experience records itself in the mind, and the mind simulates it. The mind wants to have an accurate interpretation of experience, and of how reality works...
2021-05-29 20:31:06


The body has certain limits when it comes to making effort. The limits I perceive, from my embodied experience do not coincide with what my body can take. When exercising for example, on a regular day my performance would be much less intense than if i would've been in a...
2021-05-28 21:43:19

Start Game

A clean slate, a blank canvas, a white sheet of paper, a white wall, a plot of land, a newborn baby, a clear mind, a silent night, the ocean, the desert a mountain top above the clouds. Where do you go when you look for inspiration? Starting afresh is intimidating...
2021-05-27 21:57:37

A rising blue flame
quick outline

Descending the river Ether I looked on both shores to admire the magnificent cities built by the first colonies to arrived here. Just like me, they were amazed by the beauty and richness of this land. Some were lured by it and decided to abandon the turbulent waters of their...
2021-05-26 20:43:33

The first time I took LSD - Trip report

Today is a day just like that day, nice and sunny, the summer is just starting and the vegetation is exploding everywhere I look. It's been a while since I took LSD for the first time, about five years ago if I remember well. I was visiting a friend who...
2021-05-25 20:15:24

I express myself therefore I exist.

Why do I always have to write about something? Why can't I just let my hands do the writing while I stare amazed at what's being written? I tried a couple of times to decouple my hands from my brain, It kinda worked. For example that one time when I...
2021-05-24 19:36:12

Letting go of fear

Sometimes, I find myself torn apart by worries and I wonder, why do I worry? Fear. My mind cannot stop thinking what if this or that won't turn right. It compulsively thinks about the future. Everything that falls into a blind spot outside of my control or awareness becomes something...
2021-05-23 13:47:21

Rediscovering freedom

These days I'm at home with my parents, in the house where I lived my childhood. It's my third day today, it's been raining constantly since I arrived. The city where I am right now is called Ploiesti, which translates to The city of rain. Today I felt freer than...
2020-12-12 01:30:15